The Fear of Letting Go Is...
There was a point in my life where I began to realize that my co-dependence was a huge obstacle to my true, authentic self being able to express. At that point I began to fear being co-dependent. I could see how it diminished me and put entirely too much pressure on others to be my source of happiness or pain.
So I began the journey of letting go of the desperate, dysfunctional need to have my existence affirmed by others, the need to mold and manipulate myself into the persona that I thought would please them. In the process, another fear began to show.
I soon found myself in the fear of Not being co-dependent, which is the reason I had resorted to co-dependence in the first place. In the absence of interacting in the favorable persona, I would have to look within and find authentic reactions, authentic opinions, authentic emotions that I would actually express!
There had been rewards in being co-dependent, and now it was time to find the rewards in ending this practice.
- The reward is authenticity itself, discovering the essence of who I really am.
- The reward is freedom.